So tomorrow is Mother’s Day. Feels unfair. And only a week and a half after my would-have-been-due-date. But, trying not to be too negative. Hah!
Last weekend, we did end up buying a new car. I still have mixed feelings. We traded in my car. The car that I bought back in 2005, with the idea of kids in mind. MY CAR. And we traded in Jason’s truck. No biggie there. But, we went from 2 cars to 1. Which shouldn’t be a thing, but it’s a thing in my head. It is such a visual and physical reminder that I have no freedom.
With epilepsy… well, it limits my freedom. I technically still have my driver’s license, because the DMV is stupid, I guess. But, part of my epilepsy involves hallucinations, which can be very dangerous at 75 mph down the freeway. And although I mainly have simple partial seizures, I do rarely have complex partial seizures, where I black out. I have had a blackout while driving, and totaled the first version of my car that I bought in 2005. So it is a huge risk to drive, and I don’t do it anymore.
When buying the new car, we had a few things in mind. To Jason, the ONLY important thing was fuel mileage. To me, I wanted to make sure that it was comfortable to get in and out. I wanted to make sure we got a car that was big enough to hold my wheelchair. And, I wanted to keep in mind that we have 10 birds, and we transport a few at a time on a regular basis. As well as all their stuff. I wanted to make sure the car we got had room enough for all of that. And I repeatedly voiced those concerns to Jason, who was still focused solely on fuel mileage.
The thoughts that I didn’t voice had to do with kids. It is such a touchy subject for me, and he is a typical guy who doesn’t think of things like that. Like, how would this car be with a kid’s seat… will it hold a stroller… how hard would it be to get a kid in the car…? When I bought my last car, I thought about all of those things. So trading in my car was kind of like dismissing all my careful planning. How can I explain to anyone that my current lack of child is totally ruining my car buying experience?? That just sounds ridiculous!
But, we ended up getting a 2012 Honda Insight. It is a hybrid that gets 41/44 MPG. It is an amazing blue color, almost a turquoise. The wheelchair fits perfectly in the back…. cause it is a hatchback. It is low to the ground, which I hate. But, of our options, and our budget, the car is a win.